The Simplest Things

'Tis true, I haven't kept up my blog since landing in Toronto.

It hasn't been the easy ride I thought it was going to be. Job market here is apparently very good, so said the customs officer who let me into the country, so said the hostel owners who answered my queries, so said the recruitment agency who's put me on their books. So what's the god damn problem? Why am I still not employed? This gives me the sickening conclusion that I'm not good enough for anything. It's an awful feeling and I know it's not the truth, but it does have an influence on the positivity you try to maintain.

As for living arrangements, I'm still on the floor of a friend's friend's one bedroom apartment. I am thankful I have a place to sleep but at the same time it is far from an ideal situation.

At almost two months in Toronto I'm beginning to feel a little frazzled and worried how the next ten months will pan out.

But let's not leave this entry on a bad note.

In the late afternoon/early evenings, I usually sit on my friend's deck in downtown Toronto and watch the sky. The fading light is beautiful to watch as it plays on the clouds and the summer breeze makes sitting outside very comfortable. It's reminiscent of home and I like that a lot.